Spurn

        To the nights I didn't sleep because you didn't allow me to and to the nights I didn't sleep because I was just thinking about the nights we've spent ! You've always been there either in real or in dreams. It's not that I am possessive on you , it's just that I need the same importance I had in your life ! Lol maybe I never had ! Apparently I started changing like you, either the way you speak or the way you ignore !  You made me laugh , you made me cry for a while . But I never expected you'll leave me in tears forever'. Is it just me or everyone in this damn world who expects the same they give to a person. I knew you had a stone heart. But I never knew they grow harder and stronger day by day. Life has more cycles than a life cycle of a butterfly. Eventually you meet a person, hangout with them and get to know about them.  ( This is what the world thinks) But when you meet a person , you meet their lifestyle ! Getting to know them to the fullest and then ditch them to the fullest. The people whom we thought they aren't, are them. The things we thought they wouldn't do, is their job. Everyone doesn't have a heart like yours baby girl ! They just use yours. And you giving space for them to use was your biggest mistake. But still, I thank you with all my heart for making me feel numb, for making me lose the little happiness that was stuck in my heart, for teaching me lessons that I wasn't taught and finally a big thank you for making me understand I deserve better ! All of us have a person in life, from whom we accept but end up getting rejected! Did that rejection affect you a lot or was it worth a little cry? At first, everything is like a fairy tale ! Oh baby girl ! It isn't real ! It's just mirage. Never stick on to things. When you give yourself an explanation, stick to that, either positive or negative! But never spend twenty-four hours seven days a week for something that isn't worth you.  That's what you do on loop. Giving space and spending nights regretting. This was one of them :):