Everytime

To the times ,

I waited for you and you never came 

I was marvelled by your presence but you weren't

I selfishly searched for your reactions which I never got

I gave you second chances but you never used 

I held on to things which weren't good for me just for you

I tried to fit in just for you, even if I couldn't

I wanted to clutch your soul but wasn't allowed

I beleived you'll make it up for all you did 

I still smiled at your unpleasant words

I stayed back even when you gave me a thousand reasons to leave

I wanted you to embrace me, but you felt embarrassed of me

I wanted to be the angel around your throne

I babysat you when you needed me 

You made me feel blue 

You crushed my heart like fallen leaves

It aint my fault but its named to be mine

Every single time 

I didn't need your apology

But I sure needed one

Your accountability :):